Updated March 2023

Some of you out there have expressed a desire to know my thoughts

about my faith in God etc., here's a brief note.

You can read all the books in the world about religions and philosophy,
and still not find God nor the answer to life. I was never really happy without God,

and when I reached 21 years of age I was tired of living.One day a youth pastor came home from the US, on the waves of the 70’s Jesus Revolution! He gave me a copy of "The Way"a living Bible.

I only had an old 1917 Swedish Bible since Sunday school, it always made me fall asleep. The Way however was interesting with illustrations, so I began reading

and it sparked an interest in me to try to find out more about God,

since I had never met him, As I got even more curious
I decided to go to a Bible School in Örebro, Sweden with a friend

who also was looking for God.
At the Bible school I didn't learn that much

since I had heard most of it before as a kid. So I gave God an ultimatum.
"If nothing happens while I am here, I will skip it all and go to sea,

I saw the sea as my “final solution”. I simply did not want to live any longer.

On the last night after school had ended I met God just before midnight.

It was supernatural,

when God's power hit me I could not feel the chair i was sitting in!
I could NOT feel my body as God touched me and

I felt like a weightless astronaut in deep space.
I had never felt LOVEd before, I could not understand why God

would take the time to contact me, a nobody that no-one else had ever loved.

It was unexplainable, then he told me that no religion leads to him,

only Jesus can open THE door! I received a major download of information somehow, and all of a sudden I began understanding the Scriptures.

What I was told in Sunday school suddenly came alive in me.

It's impossible to explain it all, because it was all totally supernatural

and real at the same time. I danced like the fiddler on the roof
through the streets of Örebro that night, I had never been so happy in my life!
God promises to meet us if we look for him, and he did meet me in my desperation!
It's not hard to meet God, but I think most of us need to be desperate, like I was.
– Find a living church!

God bless you! Benjamin