BEN's (Almost Daily) WRITE 59 2006 05 28 South Wartzor
I have visitors for a few days, so I probably won't write untill thursday (God willing)...Here's a painting of Joseph and Mary on the run.
Computer painting "Joseph and Mary going to Jerusalem" © Benjamin Antell 2006
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 58 2006 05 27 South Wartzor
A responsibility of a Christian.
If a friend of ours gets lost into the world, we have a responsibility to warn him/her of the consequences of his/her actions. If we don't, we will have to pay as well. This will cause a lot of grief, but God is clear on this matter. We have to talk to these people and let them know what God thinks. The rest is up to them.
Ezekiel 3:20 Again, When a righteous man doth turn from his righteousness, and commit iniquity, and I lay a stumbling-block before him, he shall die: because thou hast not given him warning, he shall die in his sin, and his righteousness which he hath done shall not be remembered; but his blood will I require at thine hand. 21 Nevertheless if thou warn the righteous man, that the righteous sin not, and he doth not sin, he shall surely live, because he is warned; also thou hast delivered thy soul.
I was glad that Finland won the Eurovision song contest...finally.
But at the same time I was sad that we won with the help of the dark side. There can be no blessing in that. I don't know if the Lordi guys are devil worshippers or not, but they will draw thousands of children into the occult, and that can never be good. Lordi may be as innocent as Dandelions in a field, but that won't change the facts.
Photo "Fangs" © Benjamin Antell 2006
Wow if people only knew God.
Most of my friends are non-Christian painters and musicians. It's sad that most of them probably never will find God. They will die in their sins and go to Hell in the end, if they don't accept Jesus. Many of them are kind souls, but that won't change a thing since salvation is about Grace...and only Grace.
Evangelisation is my only reason for making music and painting.
I've never been "in it for the money". Everybody talks about money, when they interview me. There's nothing more boring than discussing money (for me). I don't think that money should have anything to do with creativity. Once money comes into the picture, everything changes...dishonesty creeps in. "perhaps the painting will be easier to sell if there are more flowers in it"..."perhaps I should use more reds in the picture, because red sells"... The same goes for music. People build their songs after commercial formulas, in order to make more money. I've had a number of hits myself, but those were only by chance. My taste in music has become more structured these last years, so it appeals to a wider audience, but it has nothing to do with money. If I were making music for the love of money, I'd be sticking to standard production rules. And my writing would be about topics that are more commercial.
Photo "LA WALL" © Benjamin Antell 2006
I have plans on writing a more commercial record soon (if God wants me to continue with music). My personal taste in music has grown a lot with time. I like commercial music more now than before. The new music will in this case be more accessable than my older productions. I might however write about other topics than faith now and then. I only put out music that I like though. I would never put out a record for any other reason. If I had nothing to say, I would not say it. I hate the business side of showbiz it's disgusting.
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 57 2006 05 26 South Wartzor
You can't read the bible as just another book!
If you read the bible as just another book, it will be totally meaningless to you! The bible was dictated to man by God. If you aren't a Christian already, you need to pray to God in Jesus name (in His name we can come before the throne of God anytime we like) and ask the Father for the guidance of the Holy Spirit as we read. The Holy Spirit is He who can unfold God's word (the bible) so that we understand it. There is NO other way.
Before I met the Holy Sprit I used to fall asleep every time I tried to read the bible ZZZ.
It was the best sleeping pill in the world for me :)
Drawing © Benjamin Antell 2006
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 56
2006 05 25 South Wartzor
Photo: Ronnie and I in 1988
I would not be a Christian today, had I not experienced the baptism of the Holy Spirit.
Life without the Holy Spirit is like driving a car at night with only one parking light on.
Life with the Holy Spirit feels like driving with the head light's low beams on. You can see OK with low beams.
Only in the next life will the high beams be turned on. Only then will God's deeper secrets be revealed. The mystery of God will be finished!
Revelation 10:7 look it up
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 55 2006 05 24 South Wartzor
There are many foolish people out there, who try to stop people from finding what they haven't found themselves. Those guys are not your friends! They are lazy and mean people who want to deprive you of eventual happiness, just because "they" are miserable.
They will lie and tell those who search for God, that ;
- "there is no Hell"
These are all lies from the pits of Hell. There is nothing a anyone can do to "earn" his/her way to Heaven. Read my keys "NOTHING". The only way to Heaven is to;
If you confess with your mouth that Jesus Christ is Lord, and if you believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved. For with the heart man believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession of salvation is made". Romans 10:9,10
It's so simple that many don't get it!
My life didn't really begin until I had asked the Lord into my heart.
It's been a long and twisting road. God is teaching me lots of things
daily. I know I have a long way to go yet, but God is good, and He doesn't
ask anything of me that I can't do. The impossible things, He takes
care of...I do what I can and then He takes over.
This life is just a gust of wind in comparison with eternity.
I'm sure that Heaven will be something unimaginable, and I'm sure that it will blow peoples minds completely. The world will seem like a bad dream after Heaven. I'm sure we will not miss "anything" after we get there. God said in His word that He will wipe our tears, I think it means that He will low-level format all the pain, loss and all bad memories. Heaven will be a comfort zone for all involved.
Rev 21:4 look it up
Anyone can get saved.
Did you hear about the mass murderer Son of Sam from the 70's? Check it out.
Home Page of David Berkowitz
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 54 2006 05 23 South Wartzor
"You must not treat me as ordinary" -God
Knowing God a tad, I know that He is loving and forgiving, but I'm sure there is a limit. I used to watch Conan on TV now and then, but it's getting to silly for me and it really saddens my hear to see them mocking my Savior all the time. People keep bashing Jesus and God on prime time, it's silly, ugly and mean. I don't think anybody will get away with it in the long run.
God created Heaven (Eden) on Earth for us all.
What did we do to thank Him? We broke every possible promise and rule, and then we murdered His son Jesus, who gave His life so that we could be forgiven our sins. And now we mock everything that is Holy. Don't tell me "man is good".
We are rotten to the core.
But still God is reaching out His mighty hand, because He loves us, every bent little bastard. (He reached it out to me :)
So what are you going to do with your life today?
Accept Him as your Savior or just throw your life away? There are only two roads, one leads to Heaven, the other one to Hell. If you think you suffer now, you don't know what you are talking about.
Hell will be much more devastating and terrible than you or I can ever imagine, for those who haven't accepted Christ into their hearts. Heaven will be much more wonderful, than we can possibly ever imagine!
Just ask God in Jesus name and Heaven is yours!
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 53 2006 05 22 South Wartzor
I was wondering when this day would come,
I asked God what o write about, and my mind is blank...well there's a lot I "could" write about but if I don't feel led, then I'd rather not write. Normally I pray, then I open TextEdit and the words come. It's now 12:52 in the afternoon.
I'm off to the recording studio (downstairs :)
14:20...I just got the newspaper..."redit"...
If we got along on the Ark, then why can't we get along now?
In the class rooms of Saudi Arabia, in their text books, the children are taught that the Jews are apes and the Christians (westeners) are swine. They are also taught that anyone belonging to another faith than the Moslem, will burn in the fires of Hell.
This is nothing new to me since I have traveled around the world. But I guess most people don't know about these teachings. Most Arabs seem to think that westerners are Christians...all westerners. It's because of the culture chock, a great misunderstanding.
Computer painting "The Rock" © Benjamin Antell 2006
I urge all who are true Christians all over the world, to pray for our Moslem brothers and sisters!
These children who grow up with a hate in their hearts towards the rest of the world, are going to have a great disadvantage in life. I pray that they will find truth, love and peace in their lives. And that the Eastern governments remove these lies from their books and hearts, in the name of brotherhood and peace.
Have a nice day world, I mean it!
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 52
2006 05 21 South Wartzor
I'm a day ahead of myself, but I feel strongly about this. I just read through it on the net.
HURRICANE KATRINA AMERICA I AM CHARGING YOU REPENT
HURRICANE KATRINA - AMERICA I AM CHARGING YOU REPENT
A HARD MESSAGE - A MESSAGE OF FLINT
But in an extremely busy period of ministry, suddenly
That too held me off for days - Father - I said -
But the urgency continued - And as we were driving
Then I saw an enormous hand that almost covered the
It was such a terrible sight and a feeling of terrible
AMERICA - I AM CHARGING YOU - REPENT
And I said - Father - we are repenting for the
TWO GREAT AND FESTERING BOIL
Then I saw an awful thing - It is an unpopular and
THE FIRST BOIL - NEW ORLEANS
I saw a great and festering boil in New Orleans and
Yes - it is true - my body is repenting for many of
And it was such an insignificant move - with a
THE SECOND BOIL - THE MIDDLE EAST AND GAZA
And then the Lord said - in the same manner - Americas
To the majority of my body in America - it has been a
AN IGNITION KEY CONDONED BY THE CHURCH THAT LOOSED THE
And somehow I sensed that the fruit of this act by the
And then I saw a terrible thing - I saw millions of
And the Lord said - "This is what my Church did during
EXPEDIENCY - THE OIL
EXPEDIENCY - and the Lord showed me - Oil - and He
And He said - I AM CHARGING AMERICA - REPENT FOR YOUR
I said " O Father -many people will have a hard time
And God said again - I AM CHARGING AMERICA - REPENT
"For I am stirred up with wrath - says the Lord -
For I have heard the conversations - in the hidden
For my hand has been stayed - but my hand can be
And yet you say that all is well - and yet you say
And where is the man and where is the woman and where
For my purpose is not your purpose O Church - And my
And yet you nod and yet you smile and yet you say
And yet you say - It is not popular to address these
For all is not well says the Lord and all is not good
And somehow I knew that even as President Bush
(Please understand how hard this is for me to write as
And then my attention was drawn to another strange and
And I felt the burden and the grief -this time of the
And how He loved them and grieved for them - And then
"My Church have been blinded and sidelined as to
And I frowned at the Lord - looking back to the
And I saw Jesus literally walk in front of the people
If we - as the Body of Christ forget the cause of
I charge you Beloved America - let us not lose the
Let us repent before it is irreversible.Fruits of Repentance
1. America will be reprieved from a devastating
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 51 2006 05 20 South Wartzor
Praying in tounges promotes healing to our bodies!
One of the 7 "Box Americana" covers. My CD was released by Riverside Records, Stockholm, Sweden.
Neurosurgeon and a researcher Dr. Carl Peterson, of Oral Roberts University
in Tulsa, Oklahoma, discovered through research and testing that when
we pray in the Spirit, there is an activity which is set in motion in
This is something that only spirit filled humans can experience!
Partly and freely quoted from: http://www.swordoftruth.org/view/?pageID=188479
This is nothing new to "believers",
but I thought I'd mention it now that there is scientific proof to back it up. If you have received the Holy Spirit into your heart, go for it!
I've never had so much fun as I had the first years of being born again. (I'm not saying that it's over :)
God used to joke around with me a lot. I've never laughed so much in all my life. He used to show me comical stuff in the Bible as well. Stuff that I'd never understood or sometimes seen before.
I grew up with the image of God as being a sour grape,
but when I met Him personally I realized that He is loving, funny and just wonderful. I began thinking of Him as my best buddy, but I do realize that there is a great respect due to Him, since He is much bigger than we can ever imagine. I would never treat Him as something ordinary. I just got a tad sidetracked in life for a while with all the worldly whatsit.
I haven't been going to the church in Kvevlax for more than a year or so,
so I'm just getting to know the people there. I can't stay away,
I really need to go there. Faith comes from hearing the Word of God
preached. When I'm away from church I feel parched, I just gotta go
back for another fill. And just imagine how strong they will
eventually become having a weirdo like me in the pews!
Today I'm invited to a house warming party. One of the pastors has apparently moved. Wish me and especially them luck, I was never able to flirt socially without overdoing it :)
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 50 2006 05 19 South Wartzor
Is God talking to you or not?
Fasting is a good way to get answers.
Photo © Benjamin Antell 2006
Go without food for a day or two as you ask God your question. He will the see that you are serious. That's what I do if God is silent. If I remember correctly I have received answers 99 times out of a hundred this way. Perhaps even 100% since God sometimes answers kinda cryptically :)
Photo "Joe Doe" © Benjamin Antell 2006
I often tell Him that it's "very important" to me if He answers. You can talk to God as you would talk to any man, but remember that God is Holy, you should not treat Him without great respect.
And he said unto them, This kind can come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting. [Mark 9;29]
Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye devour widows' houses, and for a pretence make long prayer: therefore ye shall receive the greater damnation. [Matthew 23;14]
Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. [Philippians 4;6]
You can ask Him about anything (within reason),
He will answer. That doesn't mean that some days can't be sad and lonesome, like Bob Dylan sings on Love and Theft. Sometimes I'm so anxious for my reply, that I don't even realize it that I have received it. Most answers I get through His word, others through other people without them realizing that He is talking through them. God often uses other people. He even used Sting once, go figure...every step you take, you know the song that Sting partly stole (borrowed?:-) from Led Zeppelin.
Defraud ye not one the other, except it be with consent for a time, that ye may give yourselves to fasting and prayer; and come together again, that Satan tempt you not for your incontinency. [1 Corinthians 7;5]
Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. [James 5;16]
And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him. [James 5;15]
Not all who are sick have sinned though,
Don't worry about that in case you are troubled and don't know why
you are sick...there can be many reasons.
When God moves into your heart, many questions disappear because they are unimportant. If you have received Him into your heart, never stop praying to Him. It's very important that you don't lose your first love for Him.
He will probably bless you when you accept Him, don't forget Him when things start going smoothly! There is so much more in store for you. A lifetime is too short to take in all the blessings. And remember your brothers and sisters (all those around you), their friendship is worth more than gold. Remember to help them, after all that is what we are here for, to care for each other. If you bless them, you actually bless yourself. This is also true if you happen bless someone who isn't worthy.
Don't worry if it takes a long time to get new friends, that's just something that happens, you can't buy friends. I live in the wilderness nowadays and God is a great comfort to me as I'm pretty much alone. I've moved so often that I don't have a single soul that I can ask for help these days, but that doesn't matter to me, because God is good.
Don't worry if you feel lonely, remember God loves you and will never forsake you!
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 49 2006 05 18 South Wartzor
Giving God first part of your income.
The bible tells us to share our wealth, even how small it is. If we do this with a glad heart, He will bless us. I know this from experience.
I also heard a story yesterday from a preacher who hadn't given anything to the Lord except his time. So he sold his beloved 12 stringed guitar, and gave his money to the church or whatever. Now he's got guitars coming out of the woodwork :) People feel compelled by the Holy Spirit to give him guitars. He gives a lot of them away since he can't use them all.
That's what happens when you follow God's voice. Some people actually hear His voice audibly others feel what they should do (that's the case for me).
First part of your income should go to the church you belong to.
10-12% is a normal sum to tithe. The idea is to give first to God what is His, then believe in Him to take care of you...not to give "if" you have anything left over. If you do, you will be blessed. If you do it only in hope of getting blessed, it doesn't work :) You have to "want" to give. You can of course give more if you like. And remember the poor around you!
Mark 10:21 Then Jesus beholding him loved him, and said unto him, One thing thou lackest: go thy way, sell whatsoever thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, take up the cross, and follow me.
John 13:34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.
Lev 27:32 And concerning the tithe of the herd, or of the flock, [even] of whatsoever passeth under the rod, the tenth shall be holy unto the LORD.
Photo "mammonmobile" © Benjamin Antell 2006
Don't waste a lot of time thinking too much about money.
Many of us are not supposed to be rich. Be happy with what you have, if you have food for the day. Help others and you will become a happier person. Live for others instead of living only for yourself. I'm not saying that you should let people take advantage of you, but be a kind helping soul, and God will reward you.
2 Ch 31:5 And as soon as the commandment came abroad, the children of Israel brought in abundance the firstfruits of corn, wine, and oil, and honey, and of all the increase of the field; and the tithe of all [things] brought they in abundantly.
There's so much more in the world than cash.
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 48 2006 05 17 South Wartzor
Whrooooom!..."what was that"?..."that was love mate".
Where did love go? In came all the reality shows etc., out went love. People are growing cold and dishonest, thinking only of themselves an money. Lucky for me I get to go to church and meet people who care for each other. Of course there are "sayers" in church but there are also doers! People who care about others, without any hidden agenda. Nobody is of course perfect.
Finally, brethren, farewell. Be perfect, be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the God of love and peace shall be with you. [2 Corinthians 13;11]
If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen? [1 John 4;20]
I do know a few people outside the church who are loving also. Friends who don't think about everything in terms of money etc. but they sure don't grow on trees. God says in His word that if we love then we fill all the other commandments automatically.
If ye fulfil the royal law according to the scripture, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself, ye do well: [James 2;8]
If people hurt you, don't let it get to you!
Move on with your life as soon as possible, you'll only hurt yourself thinking about it. Look at the positive things in life. Like Mike Nesmith from the Monkees once said "You can't turn horse shit into ice cream", but I say it's worth a try :) You can turn just about anything around if you think positively, especially if you pray about it as well.
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. [1 John 4;18]
But whoso hath this world's good, and seeth his brother have need, and shutteth up his bowels of compassion from him, how dwelleth the love of God in him? [1 John 3;17]
Everybody seems to be running their legs off to find the end of the rainbow, with the pot of gold or a Beamer or two...
Dial in just about any TV show, all are about money, enjoying yourself, and buying stuff...looking cool. Christ has so much more to offer, and He is not dull in any way, He is way cool once you get to know him a tad.
Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. [1 John 2;15]
For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows. [1 Timothy 6;10]
By the way, if you think taking drugs or getting drunk feels cool, that's nothing compared to God's "power".
You should try Jesus. I've been known to empty a glass or two in my days (before I met God. I'm not saying alcohol is necessarily wrong) Man was I surprised at the wonderful indescribable feeling I get when God pours His love on me... It feels a tad like getting really drunk but the feeling is much stronger and much, much nicer. There's really nothing on Earth to compare His presence with, but it's powerful and wonderful...totally mind blowing :)
I often experience it when I thank Him for things in my life, and when I pray for or with people in church.
Others mocking said,These men are full of new wine. [Acts 2;13] Read the whole chapter!
My thoughts on Alcohol.
Many preachers who preach from the flesh (hypocrites), are adamantly against alcohol. They even invent stories that are untrue, like "Jesus only drank juice", and rubbish like that. Sometimes I can understand them, because some of them work with drunks etc. I think alcohol is a blessing to many, although it can be misused just as anything else, food, sex, weapons, music...U name it.
Jesus first miracle was turning water into wine at a wedding.
Some preachers lie and say that it was just Cordial or something :) But in the bible states that the people were totally drunk, plastered, a public mess or gone Borneo when Jesus made more wine!
The guy in charge was surprised that the best wine came last, because the ones that were really drunk would not be able to tell the difference. And saith unto him,
Every man at the beginning doth set forth good wine; and when men have well drunk, then that which is worse: but thou hast kept the good wine until now. [John 2;10]
1 Timothy 1 Now the Spirit speaketh expressly, that in the latter times some shall depart from the faith, giving heed to seducing spirits, and doctrines of devils; 2 Speaking lies in hypocrisy; having their conscience seared with a hot iron; 3 Forbidding to marry, and commanding to abstain from meats, which God hath created to be received with thanksgiving of them which believe and know the truth. 4 For every creature of God is good, and nothing to be refused, if it be received with thanksgiving: 5 For it is sanctified by the word of God and prayer. 6 If thou put the brethren in remembrance of these things, thou shalt be a good minister of Jesus Christ, nourished up in the words of faith and of good doctrine, whereunto thou hast attained.7 But refuse profane and old wives' fables, and exercise thyself rather unto godliness. 8 For bodily exercise profiteth little: but godliness is profitable unto all things, having promise of the life that now is, and of that which is to come.
I've been ill for some time, and one day I asked God "what can I do, I can't stand it any more"?
And I got this bible verse, and when I looked it up it said " Drink no longer water, but use a little wine for thy stomach's sake and thine often infirmities". [1 Timothy 5;23]).
I had a glass of wine with my food and it made the world of difference to my health. I was surprised at first until I read more about alcohol in the bible. I still don't drink to get drunk, because I don't like to lose control. But it was interesting when I realized that alcohol was another "man made" sin.
I'd stopped drinking alcohol when I met the Lord, because I'd been taught that it was a sin :( Looking back, it probably was good that I stopped, because it's much easier to drink than to solve your problems etc. That was in 1975.
The bible does state however, that if you feel in your heart that alcohol or anything else is wrong for you, then "don't do it" whatever it is you are thinking about. Because if you sin against your conscience, you'll hurt yourself. And don't nourish "bad" thoughts. And naturally you should not make other people drink if they feel it's wrong for them.
But when ye sin so against the brethren, and wound their weak conscience, ye sin against Christ. [1 Corinthians 8;12]
I just felt that I had to mention this, since so many think they or others will burn in Hell for having a glass of wine :-)
I do however believe that believers should stay sober, and filled with the Holy Spirit rather than alcohol. Because what can you do for other people if you are filthy drunk? No much me boyo. And I don't think you'll get any revelations from the Lord while you are blotto either.
Balance is the answer, but I suppose balance whooomed outta this world in the garden of Eden already.
And be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with
the Spirit; [Ephesians 5;18]
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 47 2006 05 16 South Wartzor
In the West few people believe in the spirit world :)
And if they do, they are too embarrased to admit it.
Computer painting "ascending" detail © Benjamin Antell
I know that to you in the East this is strange, since you are being harassed by spirits all the time (more openly).
You actually need much more faith to be an Atheist than a true Christian. An Atheist gets "NO REPLY", so he/she has to believe really hard in the Atheist religion.
A true Christian believer on the other hand gets a Hello, I love you! from God, so it is ridiculously easy for him/her/me to believe in God. I'm not just saying this! It's true it has happened to me and many of my friends.
In all eastern religions Evil spirits often reply, that's why people believe.
I've traveled around the world and come in contact with many religions. I feel really sorry for all those who are in bondage due to spirits. Only Jesus can set a person totally free from the spirits.
It really works!
I see it all the time. Evil spirits always lie and torture their victims in different ways, never believe what they say, tell them to shut up in Jesus name. Never give in to them, pray in Jesus name, because in His name there is freedom.
It is always best to be two or more when you pray. Sometimes you need to fast (go without food for a day or so) before you pray. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
And he said unto them, This kind can come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting. [Mark 9;29]
(And Cornelius said, Four days ago I was fasting until this hour; and at the ninth hour I prayed in my house, and, behold, a man stood before me in bright clothing,[Acts 10;30])
If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.
Don't pay the spirits too much attention.
They are not important in any way. Don't talk with them, just get rid of them and start living your life to the fullest in Christ.
The Creator has mapped out your life, you should learn to walk in His predestined ways. That way you will find happiness and freedom for your soul.
Remember to read the Bible, God's word...the key to your life lies within.
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 46 2006 05 15 South Wartzor
Photo "Skyred" © Benjamin Antell 2006
I'm the idiot who believes that Jesus walked on water
Matthew 24:30 And then shall appear the sign of the Son of man in heaven: and then shall all the tribes of the earth mourn, and they shall see the Son of man coming in the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.
BEN's (Daily) WRITE 45 2006 05 14 South Wartzor
Most TV shows and magazines today focus on lust, "living in the flesh" as they used to call it. Thinking only of your own desires. The bible states that this is exactly what will happen at the end of the age. Peoples hearts will grow cold.
Computer painting "dialogue" © Benjamin Antell 2006
1John 2:16 For all that [is] in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.
Gal 5:17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.
This is why I'd never read men's magazines.
Matthew 5:28 But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.
Just thinking about making out with other women than your own wife is wrong. It can happen to anybody, but don't nourish thoughts like that. It's nothing to get hung up about either, God always forgives "if" we are sorry for our mistakes. And don't worry about what your "macho" friends say, they are just insecure about their manhood, and they need to "pretend" that they are cool...they are such a sad bunch.
Anyone who tries to get you to do something that you don't want to do, or think is wrong hates you!
Rom 1:27 And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet.
There is no love in a person like that, stay away from him/her. If he/she tries to change your mind forcefully, walk away.
The writers of many TV shows/books/magazines try to rape your conciense with their stories. If they aren't Christians then they are mostly inspired by the dark side. I say mostly because God "can" use anyone including donkeys :)
What the devil likes to do is to take over your mind gradually, so that you won't even notice it at first (some never wake up). He will mix the truth with a little lie, that way he won't be so easily detected. He does that through different religions, politics, movies, books etc. he is one smart loser, but a loser never the less.
He lost the war against God, and he and one third of the angels were thrown down to earth, that's why we are in dire straits. He is furious, and has little time left.
Isaiah 14:13 For thou hast said in thine heart, I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God: I will sit also upon the mount of the congregation, in the sides of the north:
Revelation 12:9 And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world: he was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.
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When I first met God I was dancing on clouds for years.
Sometimes when I compose, I still feel the joy. (I am at peace with life/God and know where I'm going, but life is not always easy anyway :)
Computer collage/painting "diving the Devine" © Benjamin Antell 2006
Then as time went by I got caught up in the rat race, mortgage on the home, cats, hamsters, spin dryers, cars etc. My whole life went out of whack gradually...I didn't even notice it.
The bible became heavier and heavier to carry, and harder to find...there was so little time. Prayer time got shorter.
After a crash landing spiritually and physically. I'm slowly starting to get to know Him gain. Even though I was at a low He did use me now and then. He used a donkey to talk to Balaam, so I'm sure He can use me :) Now I'm asking God to let me be one of His donkeys. He says it's not my time yet, so I guess I'll just have to wait and see what is to come.
But was rebuked for his iniquity: the dumb ass speaking with man's voice forbad the madness of the prophet. [2 Peter 2;16]
I'm pretty broken so He will have to glue me back together again, because I don't even know where the parts go any more.
Hath not the potter power over the clay, of the same lump to make one vessel unto honour, and another unto dishonour? [Romans 9;21]
It's silly how many times I've read about stuff like this happening to others, and still I slip into the same ditch. For a while I was so poor spiritually, that I couldn't even pay attention :)
PS When my wife and I prayed for our kids when they were small, God always healed them ZAP! I don't understand how I got so caught up in the worldly stuff, that I later ended up taking them to doctor instead...that's a mystery to me...life is one big boggle.
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Re-evaluation is important.
Some people decide where they stand on every issue at an early age, and hold on to their ideas/ideologies with their teeth, until their dying day. I could never do that.
How can a person grow if he/she doesn't take in new ideas/inspiration for reevaluation now and then? I always look back on what I have said and done, to see how it did in the long run. I change a lot of my views on a daily basis.
Computer collage of a box of apples "Fresh" © Benjamin Antell 2006
That doesn't mean that I fly around like a crazy bat with my tail on fire looking for new whatsits.
I have a firm belief/relationship and trust in God who saved me through Christ, but in order to grow as a man/woman it's necessary to take a gander at your own life now and then. I still say idiotic things to people now and then, my mouth is like a barn door flapping in the wind sometimes.
Psalms 12:3 The LORD shall cut off all flattering lips, [and] the tongue that speaketh proud things:
I pray to God to watch over my galloping lips sometimes, it actually helps! God is good.
Job 8:21 Till he fill thy mouth with laughing, and thy lips with rejoicing.
I wrote a short song yesterday.
God is love
God is love
Talk is cheap
that you've got
Romans 13:10 Love worketh no ill to his neighbour: therefore love [is] the fulfilling of the law.
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Jesus is mentioned in many historic works.
Here are a few examples.
LETTER OF MARA BAR-SERAPION in AD73. He wrote: "For what advantage did the Jews gain by the death of their wise king?"
An early non-Christian writing mentioning Jesus, is the history of the Jewish people by FLAVIUS JOSEPHUS (Born AD 37), a Jewish writer who worked in the court of the Roman Emperor. Born in Jerusalem he was around the time that Jesus was killed, and published he did his great work in AD93.
The Roman historian, CORNELIUS TACITUS (Born Around AD 52), around the year 110 also mentions Jesus in his writings.
LUCIAN OF SAMOSATA
There are many more non Christian historians here: http://www.apologeticscourses.com/TextBooks/JesusAndHistory
I have read of more works about Christ, but these are the ones I happen to remember right off the cuff.
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Without Jesus my life was one long...slow "bleep".
I was lucky that we didn't have guns at home because when I was 15, I meant to take my life. I would probably have done it if we'd had a gun in the house. Young people can do weird things for silly reasons. Mind what you say to them. The second time I felt really suicidal was at age 21, but then I met the Lord, and woke up spiritually. (Now I would never ever consider taking my life).
Without God life bleeps all the way to the grave, and beyond.
In Christ it's a totally different thing. He shows me new stuff every day, things I knew nothing of before. He is the "only" thing that keeps me going.
Photo "Ayer's Rock" © Benjamin Antell 2006
I finished the last track on my new CD yesterday.
I have no recording contract or anything as usual. I just write my songs, record them and see what happens. It's pretty insane every time... I have no idea what will happen this time either.
I'm working on the cover now (I used to design covers for other companies a long time ago).
I've recorded 18 songs, it's like a diary...non fiction. Again it's different from all my previous records, I like to experiment every time I make a recording, so that's why they turn out different. The songs on the CD vary as well, it's recorded in a random fashion with no preconceived ideas and no rules. I've never tried to write a hit, still I've had about 5 number one songs in the USA. People seem to like the music a lot. It feels good to know that they are on the air all over the world. I don't say this to boast. Most people haven't heard of me anyway.
It's a BIG world out there and I live by the forest on the outskirts of the world, in a land unknown to most people... There are fewer people in this country, than in the city of Los Angeles :)
When president Bush met our president Tarja, she was allowed to talk with him for 1 minute... I'm sure they discussed many important topics :=)
Wherefore also it is contained in the scripture, Behold, I lay in Sion a chief corner stone (Jesus), elect, precious: and he that believeth on him shall not be confounded. [1 Peter 2;6]
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With these writes I've "tried" to give you an insight to my faith.
I am however somewhat of a fire truck in a china shop many times. One of the reasons for this is that I almost never get offended myself. I'm just like that, you can call me anything and it doesn't matter to me, not one bit :)
Photo "LA" © Benjamin Antell 2006
Growing up I knew a man who hated almost everybody on this planet, I didn't share his views, but it's taken me a lifetime to get parts of his vocabulary out of my life. Some of it is still dormant and pops out now and then, it can make me a tad hard to understand sometimes since nobody really knows my background.
If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen? [1 John 4;20]
Most religions have very little or nothing to do with God.
They are cooked up by people wanting to control others, or for the want of gold. Some religions are more silly than others. In one of the major ones, you can do anything cold heartedly (even kill someone) and then read a bunch of meaningless prayers as absolution (forgiveness)... This is of course totally ridiculous.
God forgives us anything that's true, but that doesn't mean that we can go out and sin knowingly. I bet God is furious at people who do wrong in His name. How would you feel if somebody made war in your name? I'd be pretty ticked off that's for sure.
Whosoever hateth his brother is a murderer: and ye know that no murderer hath eternal life abiding in him. [1 John 3;15]
There is one sin which is unforgivable according to the bible (the sword).
Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit will never be forgiven. It's vital that you know this. It doesn't matter why you do it, but if you do, the next life will be worse than this one for you.
Mark 3:28 Verily I say unto you, All sins shall be forgiven unto
the sons of men, and blasphemies wherewith soever they shall blaspheme:
29 But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost hath never forgiveness, but is in danger of eternal damnation
:I believe that we are all created equal... Larry Norman sang, "then how come the rich are more equal than others"
There's an unfortunate truth in that. I've seen drunks pushed away at church doors. Jesus would never have pushed them away! If we don't love our brothers, then the Lord's spirit is not in us. Everyone should be welcomed in the house of the Lord.
Naturally we can't change God's word for those who come!
For ye know what commandments we gave you by the Lord Jesus.
But if they want to come they should be welcomed, no matter where they come from or what they look like, or how they smell...Chanel No.5 or any other channel :) And naturally it's no hindrance if they are filthy rich either.
He that loveth his brother abideth in the light, and there is none occasion of stumbling in him. [1 John 2;10]
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The Anti Christ religion of Socialism/Atheism.
This is one of the strongest religions in Sweden, and naturally it bleeds across the borders. You have to have a lot of faith to believe in an idea like Atheism, Socialism and Communism. First you have to decide not to believe in God, and then you have to adamantly hold on to your idea.
Computer art "Freon" © Benjamin Antell 2006
I'm sure there are many people who scoff at this, but think about it... Why are you an atheist? What do you base your conclusion on? It's just a theory! Have you really tried to reach God in prayer? I would have to say definitely no, because He always answers! Perhaps not right away, even though that too is common, but He will answer if you are honest!
It's very hard to break free from a socialist/atheism/communist environment, if you have been brought up in one. The spirit of Socialism, Atheism and Communism is very strong. Only the power of Christ can break it!
The spirit of Alcoholism etc.
I do admit that Alcoholics Anonymous can do a lot of good. But to be free, you should not say "I am an alcoholic" over and over, because Jesus can set you completely free! I have friends who have been professional alcoholics (even bums), and Jesus have set them free. They can even have one drink if need be, without having to start drinking (falling) again. Because when you are free of the spirit of alcoholism through Christ, then you are really free!
If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed. [John 8;36]
The same goes for any drug, religion or political party etc. that you have been a slave under. Nothing can part us from God's love, if we want God. It might take some heavy praying sometimes to get totally free, so you should seek help. It's better if you are two or more when you pray!
For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them. [Matthew 18;20]
People who have been members of Hare Krishna, always have spiritual problems, and they many times need heavy prayer to be set free. Sometimes it is enough, just to listen to a really good sermon, because evil spirits can't stand to hear good preaching...but many churches today are so watered out that there is no power left! They rely on advertising instead of God, it's sad.
Tobacco had a firm grip on me, but God set me free from that. I used to smoke two packs a day, the idiot I am :)
I try to stay away from politics, because I don't believe in them. It's all about power/money.
Check out todays link: http://xxxchurch.com/
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Studies show that patients who have peace with God have better medical outcomes than those who are angry at God or face other spiritual conflicts...
That was on the News yesterday. I also know it's true because I've seem probably thousands of people healed, at Christian meetings. As I mentioned before, it has also happened to me and other members of my family.
The Da Vinci Code is a sad attempt to strip Jesus of His Glory...again.
I don't want to see the movie, because the whole idea makes me sad. I used to like Tom Hanks and Ron Howard, now I don't want to see their movies anymore, because they would just remind me of this despicable film. The reason why it's a demonic film, is that it sows seeds of doubt into peoples hearts. It's only fiction, but since Dan Brown has mixed his wild fantasy with facts, many can't tell the difference, and it will cloud peoples judgments regarding faith.
Computer painting "Napoleon/Waterloo 1815" © Benjamin Antell
It's a smart move of the devil, to inspire these men to make the demonic movie. But then again the devil is a smart whatsit, and he is furious that he has lost the war between God and himself.
Rev 12:9 And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world: he was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.
Rev 12:12 Therefore rejoice, [ye] heavens, and ye that dwell in them. Woe to the inhabiters of the earth and of the sea! for the devil is come down unto you, having great wrath, because he knoweth that he hath but a short time.
This seems to be happening now...around the world.
Luk 21:25 And there shall be signs in the sun, and in the moon, and in the stars; and upon the earth distress of nations, with perplexity; the sea and the waves roaring;
I'm one happy puppy, that God took pity on me, and revealed Himself to me, otherwise I'd have to burn in Hell like millions of other people who don't care about the sacrifice of Jesus. It's too easy to get saved, that's why so many miss it.
Rom 1:16 For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek.
Greek means everybody!
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I guess it's inevitable to lose "friends", if you follow Christ.
As long as you are quiet things slide by nicely, but when you make a definitive stand, it turns people off. You can't make everybody happy that's 4 sure. Even though you love people, some of them will hate you for following Christ. The reason for this is that it's all a spiritual war. We run errands for either camp, and when we collide BOOM. Ephesians 6:12
Computer painting "the pearl" © Benjamin Antell 2006
The best thing that's ever happened in my life is meeting Christ.
Even though it often feels like I'm drowning in whatsit, He always pulls me up. I wish I could tell the world about Him, but it won't listen. Sure a few lucky friends and strangers here and there get to meet Him, but most people just don't care. They don't know what they are missing. Their loss will be gruesome on the day of reckoning, it's going to be Hell for them. What a terrible ordeal, but that's just the way it is.
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Soon the current money system will be history (monetary system)
The governments of the world will put a mark on our right hands or foreheads in the near future. Nobody will be able to buy or sell anything without the mark. It will be like trying to shop without VISA when money no longer exists. Some who are believers will perish then, because God has told us not to take the mark of the Beast on our bodies. The marks could be mini chips injected under the skin, tattoo's or whatever (beware).
Computer painting "666" © Benjamin Antell 2006
Revelation 14:9-12 And the third angel followed them, saying with a loud voice, If any man worship the beast and his image, and receive his mark in his forehead, or in his hand, The same shall drink of the wine of the wrath of God, which is poured out without mixture into the cup of his indignation; and he shall be tormented with fire and brimstone in the presence of the holy angels, and in the presence of the Lamb: And the smoke of their torment ascendeth up for ever and ever: and they have no rest day nor night, who worship the beast and his image, and whosoever receiveth the mark of his name. Here is the patience of the saints: here are they that keep the commandments of God, and the faith of Jesus.
It's all here in The Book Revelations (in the bible)
Revelation 14:16-18 And he causeth all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond, to receive a mark in their right hand, or in their foreheads: 17 And that no man might buy or sell, save he that had the mark, or the name of the beast, or the number of his name. 18 Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six.
(my guess is that it's the Pope)
It won't be entirely pain free to the rest of you either read= And the first went, and poured out his vial upon the earth; and there fell a noisome and grievous sore upon the men which had the mark of the beast, and upon them which worshipped his image. [Revelation 16;2]
(For 3,5 years they will persecute the believers.)
Computer painting "2 roads, one choice" © Benjamin Antell 2006
12:13 And when the dragon (the devil) saw that he was cast
unto the earth, he persecuted the woman (the believers) which
brought forth the man child (Jesus). 14 And to the woman were
given two wings of a great eagle (who is the eagle), that she might
fly into the wilderness, into her place, where she is nourished for
a time, and times, and half a time (3,5 years), from the face
of the serpent. And here is the mind which hath wisdom. The seven heads
are seven mountains (Rome, Italy! is built on seven mountains),
on which the woman sitteth. [Revelation 17;9
This is Revelations 17 (NKJ)
1 And there came one of the seven angels which had the seven vials, and talked with me, saying unto me, Come hither; I will shew unto thee the judgment of the great whore (the Roman Church) that sitteth upon many waters: 2 With whom the kings of the earth have committed fornication, and the inhabitants of the earth have been made drunk with the wine of her fornication. 3 So he carried me away in the spirit into the wilderness: and I saw a woman sit upon a scarlet coloured beast, full of names of blasphemy, having seven heads and ten horns. 4 And the woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet colour, and decked with gold and precious stones and pearls, having a golden cup in her hand full of abominations and filthiness of her fornication: 5 And upon her forehead was a name written, MYSTERY, BABYLON THE GREAT, THE MOTHER OF HARLOTS AND ABOMINATIONS OF THE EARTH. 6 And I saw the woman drunken with the blood of the saints, and with the blood of the martyrs of Jesus: and when I saw her, I wondered with great admiration. 7 And the angel said unto me, Wherefore didst thou marvel? I will tell thee the mystery of the woman (the Roman church), and of the beast that carrieth her, which hath the seven heads and ten horns. 8 The beast that thou sawest was, and is not; and shall ascend out of the bottomless pit, and go into perdition: and they that dwell on the earth shall wonder, whose names were not written in the book of life from the foundation of the world, when they behold the beast that was, and is not, and yet is. 9 And here is the mind which hath wisdom. The seven heads are seven mountains (Rome, Italy), on which the woman (the Roman Church) sitteth. 10 And there are seven kings: five are fallen, and one is, and the other is not yet come; and when he cometh, he must continue a short space. 11 And the beast that was, and is not, even he is the eighth, and is of the seven, and goeth into perdition. 12 And the ten horns which thou sawest are ten kings, which have received no kingdom as yet; but receive power as kings one hour with the beast. 13 These have one mind, and shall give their power and strength unto the beast. 14 These shall make war with the Lamb (Jesus), and the Lamb (Jesus) shall overcome them: for he is Lord of lords, and King of kings: and they that are with him are called, and chosen, and faithful. 15 And he saith unto me, The waters which thou sawest, where the whore (Rome) sitteth, are peoples, and multitudes, and nations, and tongues. 16 And the ten horns which thou sawest upon the beast, these shall hate the whore, and shall make her desolate and naked, and shall eat her flesh, and burn her with fire. 17 For God hath put in their hearts to fulfil his will, and to agree, and give their kingdom unto the beast, until the words of God shall be fulfilled. 18 And the woman (Rome) which thou sawest is that great city, which reigneth over the kings of the earth.
(I added the stuff in the parenthesis) I was going to explain this even further, but there are a few things I have to pray about, so I'll get back to the Revelations later (God willing).
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Sometimes it all feels like a Mission Impossible, wanting to tell people about the supernatural life they could have in Christ.
Nothing is however impossible if you are in God's will. If you walk in God's predestined trails for your life. Now and then someone is touched, and his/her life is changed from death to glory. God works in mysterious ways, He really does. I don't know how long I will be writing these writes, I will stop the minute God tells me to do something else.
If we don't act on impulses that God gives us, nothing will change in our lives. It's important that we do what we can for others. We are here on earth to serve. Nobody can however carry other peoples burdens, we should give them to Jesus. We do what we can, and leave the rest to Christ.
Photo, Ben playing guitar during the making of the BEN ANTELL BAND 2006 CD...out soon God willing
Right now I'm waiting on the Lord to push me in either direction. I'm not holding on to anything in my life, I'm like a Tumbling Tumbleweed...ready to roll :)
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I read an interview with a "Christian" porn star today.
It's one of the silliest things I've heard in a while. Of course it's not OK to be a porn star if you are a Christian. He was even encouraged to continue his conduct by a "minister"...the blind leading the blind.
This Minister did not know God, that's for sure. The bible tells us to stick to one partner.
Computer painting "Communique III! © Benjamin Antell 2006
But if they cannot contain, let them marry: for it is better to marry than to burn. [1 Corinthians 7;9]
People are exactly the same today as 2000 years ago when God sent the
Flood, because of all our sin. Pompeii, Sodom and Gomorra were filled
to the brim with porn, or as we like to say today, filled with uninhibited
and broadminded people doing their thing (gimme a break). It's still
sin, no matter what we call it. We haven't evolved one tiny bit since
the Flood. Sure we have a lot of gadgets, computers and space shuttles
but we are still just as silly as we were 2000 years ago!
But he that doeth wrong shall receive for the wrong which he hath done: and there is no respect of persons. [Colossians 3;25]
Some of my friends have already died, and are lost forever.
In a way It's a very sad thing that I have found the meaning of life, and not found a way to make all my friends believe it. For me it's the only thing that has kept me alive. And as I've said before, it has nothing to do with mind games or philosophy.
God is real and waiting for U to make a move...
There is only one way to God, and that is via Christ. After my first supernatural meet with God I found that out. That's why I'm not interested in other faiths etc. because I have found the answer.
Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. [John 14;6]
After all you don't continue looking when you have found, that
would be silly.
I Timothy 3 For this is good and acceptable in the sight of God
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Photo "Speedbarn" © Benjamin Antell, April 2006
The cold May winds are harassing the lowlands of Ostrobothnia, the snow is almost gone and the Cranes (big boids) and swans have touched down a while back...
Jesus will return in great glory, this I know 4 sure :)
What a day it will be when He returns, oboy are jaws going to drop to the floors then. All those scientists who have wasted their lives on joining old bones together trying to make monkeys out of us! All those arrogant atheists, proud scholars of the world. They will stand their caught with their pants down in awe, not believing their eyes.
For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the
latter day upon the earth: [Job 19;25]
2 Thessalonians 8 And then shall that Wicked be revealed, whom the
Lord shall consume with the spirit of his mouth, and shall destroy with
the brightness of his coming:
9 Even him, whose coming is after the working of Satan with all
power and signs and lying wonders,
10 And with all deceivableness of unrighteousness in them that perish; because they received not the love of the truth, that they might be saved.
And now, little children, abide in him; that, when he shall appear,
we may have confidence, and not be ashamed before him at his coming.
[1 John 2;28]
Looking for and hasting unto the coming of the day of God, wherein
the heavens being on fire shall be dissolved, and the elements shall
melt with fervent heat? [2 Peter 3;12]
Be ye also patient; stablish your hearts: for the coming of the
Lord draweth nigh. [James 5;8]
Ain't nothing U can hide from God
Photo " I Tawt I Taw a Puddy Cat" © Benjamin Antell 2006
That's right He knows everything about you, yes U...down to
the nitty gritty, every little thing. He wants you to get 2 get
to know Him! If you feel Him calling you somehow today, don't
resist...tell Him to enter your heart, and cool things will begin
to happen in your life. You stand to gain everything, you really lose
nothing. I know, because I did it and I don't regret a millisecond
Counterfeiting the bible
The group responsible for the new bible translations, seem to be going out of their way to try and sever all ties between the old testament and the new. Jesus is mentioned all over the old testament. The translators don't even believe in God's word (the bible)! Anyone who is a part of the new translations is in deep poop for sure.
This will be their reward:
Revelation 22:18 For I testify unto every man that heareth the words of the prophecy of this book, If any man shall add unto these things, God shall add unto him the plagues that are written in this book:
Revelation 22:19 And if any man shall take away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God shall take away his part out of the book of life, and out of the holy city, and [from] the things which are written in this book.
PS. No animals were harmed during this Write
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Life is not going to go perfectly just because you become a Christian!
But all my worries about 2morrow disappeared from my life including all the existential questions I had about man's evolution, religions, UFO's etc. :) So now I have no worries in the world, no matter what happens I will always love the Lord, and I'm more and more longing for Him to take me home. But then again, I do hope that I get to do something cool for Him before I whoom on outta here ===------>
Let no man seek his own, but every man another'swell being.
One of my problems 2day is that I lack enthusiasm.
Or perhaps more the ability to "show" my enthusiasm. Again that is something that stems from my childhood. I don't wish to put my dad or anybody down, I'm just telling this in case someone else is going through it too.
One day when I was sitting in my room, I was about 8 years of age. Dad came in picked up my radio that he had given me for Christmas. The radio was really cool gold colored and I used to listen to phone calls on it, somehow they were totally audible on short wave. Then my Dad started polishing it with his handkerchief. I asked him "why are U polishing my radio". Then he said "I'm selling it, you'll get a new one later"...and off he went with my radio.
After that I never got enthusiastic about anything in my life...to this day. And sure enough, dad kept taking back stuff all the time after that.
My trusty old Buick -48 at the shoot of Box Americana, a friend of mine has the Roadmaster now.
I remember when I was 18, and came home for a visit from Helsinki where I studied for a while. My Mom told me in the car that Dad had bought me a car. I went "oh yeah"...by that time I off course knew that it wasn't true. And after a while Dad said "we might sell it" :)
Talk is cheap!
I've had promises broken to me so many times it's silly, really crazy. I don't hold any grudges or anything like that, it's just an observation. I guess that these broken promises probably also had the same kind of effect on me as the repossessioning of gifts.
John 13:34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another;
as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.
It bugs me a lot, that I can't really "show" my gratitude
when people are nice to me. The enthusiasm is simply gone out the window.
Instead of going "whoopee" when something nice happens, I
always think to myself "we'll just have to see how it goes"...
I wonder if I will ever change in that respect? God only knows. He has done many miracles in my life, many of them in my heart. I'm no longer the self centered, vindictive and depressed bozo I once was. I'm not saying I'm perfect "read my lips" I'm not even close, but I'm being pushed in the right direction :)
2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if any man [be] in Christ, [he is] a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
Whatever you do, don't let the devil get you, Uncle Ben
I'm not trying to put anyone down with my Write, I'm just trying to convey what God has put on my heart. I also feel that that life is too short, to just shut up and go with the flow, when people suffer under all kinds of bondage, when they could in fact be set free in Christ.
(there is more info about me on the antell.com site, for those who R curious).
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